pain papers
a plateau of pain
suddenly
explodes inside me
in silent,
delivered by
a piece of paper.
the hand that signed,
my hand that held.
pain papers is about the power of immigration offices, whose rejection letters cause painful -even traumatic- experience for the applicants, who come to Austria for better residence, study or work opportunities. Whilst these offices exist with the purpose of covering the bureaucratic needs of people, one-fifth of Vienna’s inhabitants are undergoing unfair and exhausting procedures every year. A document, - a piece of paper - that states a person’s visa or residency permit is rejected, that paper’s existence becomes the source of psychological torture and trauma for the person. I collected a large amount of declined visa application documents from migrants residing/resided in Vienna.
The essay analyses migration and diasporic realities through a marxist and decolonial reading.
I call these documents pain papers, because they cause a juridical pain that one can only acquiesce.